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[28 Oct 2008|08:39pm] |
I had a job interview today...not to leave my house or my kids but to have a completely different role in their lives. I interviewed to be the medical case manager. (taking kids to appointments, making sure kids have meds and consent to get meds, health group stuff like that) It's not my dream job but it'd be 9-5ish (I'd have a lot of control in my schedule) Mon-Fri...I think it's time for me to grow up a bit. Even though it's just moving times and job descriptions I feel like I'm leaving my kids. I told my boss lady about it and she told me she couldn't process it...I feel like even though it was my choice I can't process it either. And it was very sudden. I expressed interest yesterday interviewed today and have a second interview on Friday. I don't want to sound cocky but they're desperate the nurse lady I interviewed with likes me. She used verb terms that implied it was only a matter of time until I had this job. no woulds but whens.
Last Thursday I also kinda almost got offered another promotion in residential life (senior supervisor from supervisor) it would mean doing supervision with staff members, having some day hours, doing family work and stuff like that. I had actually decided to take that and give it another couple years before I went back to anything clinical (if I make it back) I really meant to take that. I really really really had no intention of leaving. Until yesterday which was a really stressful and crappy day.
I guess I'm just worried I'm making a major life decision based on one bad day.....gar I had making up my mind. Anyone have a coin I could flip? Or better yet, anyone wanna choose for me?!?! Everyone keeps telling me to do what will make me happy but I honestly am not sure which job would make me happier.
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[22 Oct 2008|04:57pm] |
So I'm still working in the residential home. We're going through some budgeting issues so I'm no longer doing a million hours a week. I'm pretty much sticking to 40 which has been nice. I'm going to need at least a second job...but I'm starting to think I just need a NEW job. Part of me feels like I could never leave, but I know that's not true. I left that way about Brookview but I did it. It was hard and I still miss my kids from there like crazy but I'll be ok. No matter how much I love my kids eventually they can't be enough to keep me there. My little boy Jahlil told me I better stay at Esperanza until he leaves and I wanted to cry. I love him a lot, but....how wrong is it that he's not enough? I feel myself cracking...I'm stressed and burnt out and I don't know how much worse I'll get if I stay. I also worry if I don't "grow up" now and start to work in a job that uses my degree I never will.
Living in Stoneham by myself is nice...very quiet. I'm just not sure where or what I want to be doing right now.
I saw someone very special today that I hadn't seen a while. One of my co-workers had broken her leg recently (two months ago) and I talked her into coming to staff meeting today. She and I took Jahlil out to a late lunch. It was great and I just can't stop smiling now. Nicole is just such the heart of the program.
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| I'm not copying James, I'm coping Margaret! I've read 37... |
[29 Jun 2008|01:04pm] |
The Big Read thinks that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed.
1) Look at the list and bold those you have read.
2) Italicise those you intend to read
3) Underline the books you LOVE.
4) Reprint this list in your own LJ so we can try and track down these people who've read 6 and force books upon them ;-)
1. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2. The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien
3. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4. Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5. To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6. The Bible
7. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8. Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9. His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10. Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11. Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12. Tess of the D'Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13. Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14. Complete Works of Shakespeare
15. Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16. The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17. Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18. Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19. The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20. Middlemarch - George Eliot
21. Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22. The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23. Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24. War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25. The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26. Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27. Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28. Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29. Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
30. The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31. Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32. David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33. Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34. Emma - Jane Austen
35. Persuasion - Jane Austen
36. The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis
37. The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38. Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39. Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40. Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41. Animal Farm - George Orwell
42. The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43. One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
44. A Prayer for Owen Meaney - John Irving
45. The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46. Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47. Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48. The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49. Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50. Atonement - Ian McEwan
51. Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52. Dune - Frank Herbert
53. Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54. Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55. A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56. The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57. A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58. Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59. The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60. Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61. Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62. Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63. The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64. The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65. Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66. On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67. Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68. Bridget Jones' Diary - Helen Fielding
69. Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70. Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71. Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72. Dracula - Bram Stoker
73. The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74. Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75. Ulysses - James Joyce
76. The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77. Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78. Germinal - Emile Zola
79. Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80. Possession - AS Byatt
81. A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82. Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83. The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84. The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85. Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86. A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87. Charlotte's Web - EB White
88. The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89. Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90. The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91. Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad (can I say this is my least favorite book EVER!!!!)
92. The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery (I've read this both in french and english lol)
93. The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94. Watership Down - Richard Adams
95. A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96. A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97. The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98. Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100. Les Miserables - Victor Hugo
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| up up and away |
[17 Jun 2008|12:36am] |
So I know it's been forever...work is still sucking the life out of me one day at a time, but I like it. What can I say, I'm a masochist.
I dropped off the deposit for my NEW apartment today. I'm so excited. It's a really small studio but it's cute. What can you expect for your first apartment. It comes with a garbage disposal, a huge ass closet, a linen closet, an island between the kitchen and the bedroom/living room, a balcony, and AN AIR CONDITIONER and heat and hot water are included in rent. I'm really really excited. Ohhh and there's an elevator which is particularly great due to my being on the fifth floor lol I start moving in August first. I've kinda started to pack (I know it's a bit early but I don't get a lot of days off so I need to use what I have) Also included in the packing is the throwing out/giving away of a ton of my crap so I have hope of all of my crap fitting into the new place lol I hate being a packrat sometimes...
and with moving....I'll have a parking space and be not in the city so insurance won't be as crappy SO next monday I'm going to a dealership where a father of one of my friends is going to try to cut me a bit of a deal. Of course since I want a brand new hybrid and so does the rest of the world (this has been my dream since way before gas got ridiculous) he might not be able to do much but it'll help. I got a loan (I'm going to be in debt FOREVER) from the bank approved and an insurance quote that was really reasonable (85ish a month) I'm REALLY excited about having the car. Even though I'll be physically further from work my commute will be at least an hour and a half less. Think of all the exra sleep I'll be able to get?!?!!? Plus I'll be more likely to take extra shifts due to the sleeping which will make the being broke easier.
I'm really happy and really excited but I'm going to miss my roommates and I'm not looking forward to the ten million things involved with moving. Oh well, change is good right?
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| burnout already.... |
[28 Feb 2008|01:28am] |
I'm so tired....I'm tired of being tired....I need a vacation. Hopefully I'm goign to make it to new jersey around my birthday. I'm ready for some parental spoiling. This being grown up thing sucks. I had five hours or restraint refresher training followed by ten hours of working on the floor today which OF COURSE included at least twenty minutes of actually restraining a kid straight. My shoulder aches, my head aches, I'm STILL sick (coughing to the point of throwing up for several nights now) I'm exhuasted but at this point of time I'm buzzing with energy. Hopefully the NyQuil will kick in soon.
So I know I haven't posted in forever, I've actually been writing in a regular journal. The physical sensation of it has been nice lately. I don't know, it's not like I do anything that fun or exciting. Work eats 50-60 hours out of my week with at least 8-10 hours of commuting. I've been sick with a cold that will almost go away before it rears it's head back up and keeps me in bed for 36 hours like this weekend.
Work is going better, I'm getting the hang of things but everyday I still find myself asking how the fuck I got to be working with teenage girls.
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| cause all the cool kids were doing it ;) |
[11 Feb 2008|10:57am] |
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| Ho ho ho... |
[08 Dec 2007|10:12pm] |
Wow it's December again already. To start with I'm so sorry I haven't been around in forever and a day. I've joined the grown up crowd with the full time job, and my job ends up being more like 50ish hours a week. More if I don't manage to screen calls as I suck at saying no to work. I am loving what I'm doing which is crazy becaue I n ever thought I'd like to work with teenagers! Crazy. I mean I didn't like me as a teen why would I like random teenaged people? hehe but I do.
I've started driving a bit again with work which is great. I now have a goal...all extra monies are entering my happy Hybrid Honda Civic fund which I hope to be able to spend on (you guessed it) a hybrid honda civic next summer when Beffy and I move somewhere that will have parking for less than 500 a month. Even with mad overtime I just can't do that and insurance and car payment and gas. I be un that rich.
I sort of sprained my ankle last week, but not too badly. Couldn't really walk for like 3 days but I am back with the walking, it's just kind of sore if I'm on it too long. Being unable to walk is NO GOOD. I'm not a fan. Esepcially as I have no car and this made it extra impossible for me to make it to work.
Last but certainly not worst I really want addresses from any of you who would like a Christmas card! I know this is late but Christmas really snuck up on me. I have cards that would like to find your mail boxes (yes I know, I'm a dork) SO LEAVE ADDRESSES!!!!
I'm off to get some sleep....have to work early tomorrow and then the company holiday party whoooooo.
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[02 Oct 2007|06:41pm] |
So I have officially given my two weeks notice (Friday the 12th is my last day at the after school) and I have completed my first day of training for the new job. It is going to challenge me a lot, but I am really excited (and nervous, I admit) I will have two days off a week (unless I get overtime which let's face it, I am likely to say yes to) So the new job is going to be working with adolescent girls in a residential home. The girls are challenging, but I have worked at this house quite a bit with the temp agency and I really enjoy them and the program.
Today I traded in my Oregon drivers liscense for a Massachusetts one. I'm going to be here for a while and a part of this new job will eventually be driving (next step, find car and practice driving) I think I might even look for a drivers ed program just to help me out with city driving. Boston is just a teeny tiny bit different than North Bend to drive in. Plus it's been 6 years since I drove (except for the time I drove the nun with the broken classes and tooth home...hehe not as good a story as it sounds) I was really surprised that I didn't have to take any sort of test. Each state has their own driving laws but as my lisence was not yet expired and I am over 18 I was not required to take any written or road test. Wahoo, I am totally not complaining, but there is just something a little disconcerning about that. I did have to take a vision test which I guess makes me feel a little better. And I had to pay 90 dollars which sucked immensely. Oh well. What can you do? Massachusetts is weird and I don't have my actually liscense yet I have this cheap printed up on a regular printer piece of paper that is not good for id. my liscense should be in the mail. Weird system eh? But wahoo, first step in getting a car is complete! :D Beffy and I are going to move into a new place together when our lease expires (August) and I am going to insist on a place with some sort of parking...even just on street with a residential permit or something. I'm tired of wasting 2 hours on a 30 minute drive. Waste of my time. Plus I just can't help feeling there is a grown up-ness to owning a car and driving regularly (despite the fact that most people I ride public transportation with are adults)
And on a completely different note. In the saga of Pip: (for those of you who don't know Pip is one of my roommmates cats. He's a year old and an adorable beast) Pip has learned a new way to wake me up enough to actually pet him (no easy feat, I don't respond well to being woken up) The other day I woke up to cat claws prying open my mouth. I open my eyes to cat claws and face approaching my mouth. When I threw him off the bed and hid under the covers he stood on my head, stomping around until I sat up to grab him. I throw him out of my room. I close the door almost the whole way (closing it the whole way is a good way to get locked in my room, my doorknob sucks) He opens the door!!!! Those of you who know Pip will be surprised because he is the STUPIDEST cat ever. No lie. If he wasn't cute....;)
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[24 Sep 2007|11:35pm] |
I know I haven't been around lately. I had a rough summer and a lot of problems with my job and particularly my supervisor. I don't know if she feels threatened by me or just doesn't like me, but she hates me and has made it clear she thinks the agency would be better without me. She writes me up frequently for stuff no one else would get written up for in an effort, I believe, to build a case to fire me.
I had a pretty decent weekend. I worked 14 hours on Saturday but it was ok. On Sunday Bethany, Jamie, Bethany's parents and I went to the Phantom Gourmet Food Festival. It was pretty awesome, but I think it was better last year. My favorite food to try? Buffalo Calamari. Who thinks of these things? Mmm but it waqs good. After a nap (both full belly and a killer migraine that's been plaguing me since Saturday) we went and saw Resident Evil Extinction. It was no academy award nominee or anything but it suited my mood rather nicely. I liked it.
So today....today is hard to type, hard to put in words. Which I guess is why I'm writing about it. Let's call this my rough draft. It is my intention to leave Brookview House on October 12th. One of the adolescent girl programs I temp at a lot has told me they would like to hire me. Full time. Same(ish) pay rate. Full paid health and dental insurance. Agency policy to give lots of overtime. How could I say no, right? Yes, it's not what I want to spend the rest of my life doing. But it is a great opportunity. It's great. I should be thrilled. I am happy, but I'm also really depressed to be leaving. Depressed to be leaving my kids. I feel a bit guilty about leaving Daniel (the other site coordinator I work with) but I don't really feel bad about leaving Brookview House. I have such problems leaving people, places though. It's really quite ironic I moved all the way across the country. I guess I have no more excuses...time to write my letter of resignation.
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| Vacation |
[15 Jun 2007|11:48pm] |
So I am officially on THREE whole weeks of vacation. Can I really afford to take so long off of work? No, not really. Can I afford a really long trip across the country? Not really. But I DON'T CARE! The first two weeks are paid for (from one job at least) and maybe I'll work one of the jobs that third week. I refuse to let thoughts like these get me down. I'm on vacation. Such beautiful words.
I fly out to Portland tomorrow. I'm really excited. I haven't been to the place I called home for 18 years in 4 years. It's funny how vital something seems until you have to do without it. I feel like such a grown up. This is the first real vacation I have planned all on my own. I've booked a hotel (for a few of the nights) plane tickets, bus tickets all sorts of grown up and important things. When did I grow up?
The only sad part was telling my kids I'm going to miss the last week of school. They were really upset. It gave me a glimmer of what this August will be like if I'm leaving my job in September. But that is a thought chain for a non vacation day.
I'm going to try to get some sleep. I fly out in a little more than 8 hours. WHEEEEEEEEE
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| graduation |
[20 May 2007|10:44pm] |
I finally have finished my time at Lesley! I am the official owner of a fancy piece of paper saying I have a Masters Degree. Who'd of thunk it was possible? The ceremony was actually not too bad. The speakers were all fairly humorous and brief which was NICE. It felt like kind of a let down since I didn't really do much towards it this year. anticlimatic and all that.
My mom had come up to visit for a few days. It was nice to spend time with her, I took some time off from work to do so which was even nicer. Only saw dad for a little bit. His jury duty (six weeks, ha!) prevented him from taking time off of work. We mostly got to watch the red sox lose together. good times.
My roommates and a friend of ours went out for good Chinese food and Scorpian Bowls tonight to celebrate. We then saw Shrek the Third and I was surprised it wasn't too bad. The plot was still far from perfect, but it had me laughing and really what more can you ask for from a third movie in a series?
I have started to get supplies for the party on Saturday. Please feel free to come next Saturday if you're in the neighborhood. We're going to have plenty of alcohol and foods.
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| 10 things I've learned while ignoring the internet |
[03 May 2007|12:06am] |
10 things I've learned while ignoring myspace
1. having a cold plus a flu does not double your fun
2. going to a crappy waste of time class with a fever does not make it better....nor does it make you have funny hallucinations to help you pass the time (sadly)
3. people are stupid...even people about to get their Masters Degrees
4. sometimes there are more important things than picking up your cap and gown...like random free carnivals
5. people look at you funny when you (or your friends) ask them to make a caution sign that says "little perv's favorite room"
6. it is fun to bowl people but hard to control the ball
7. sometimes even cracked out little freaks can act like cats...even when they have a little head
8. watching a marathon is dangerous...you might just see people running in bunny ears
9. ....or an old guy running in a pink tutu
10. working 18 hours while queasy and occasionally throwing up does not kill you....but you almost wish it does
There, now you're all caught up on the last month
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| adventure! |
[27 Mar 2007|02:01am] |
So I went out back to take out the trash like normal. I didn't lock the door, just left it gently shut. I didn't really put on shoes, just slipped into some really uncomfortable boots, no socks. Just something to keep my feet warm and dry. I got the dumpster and was so charmed by the evening I didn't want to go in. I turned around slowly waiting for whatever was entrancing me to just pull so I'd know where to go. i stopped facing the alley and my feet were moving before I could finish deciding whether or not to go. I trumped through lightly crusted snow piles, forgotten by the sun in the middle of the alley. The damp scent of the earth made me smile although the smell of awake trees was missing. Sleeping trees just don't smell right.
I got to the street and turned left, ignoring the voice saying it was midnight and I was in my walrus pajama pants. I cross the street and suddenly I knew where I was going. I passed by the no tresspassing signs and the police notice sgns. I admit to wincing a little when I heard the cop car pull someone over down the street, but I couldn't stop. I walked down the long labyrinth of fences. I froze as lights went on and a man walked out of the building to another dumpster. Clearly lit in the light I stand until he turns back towards the building and bravely I tromp forward again. Finally, my goal was achieved. I happily crunched through the bark dust, turned over the dripping plastic and plopped myself down. A few pumps later and I was swinging. The wind whhhhumping in my ear, the world tilting with me. Just what I needed. How could I have forgotten I needed that?
On my way out a black shadow on the bench caught my eye. Lined up, right along the forgotten spiderman mitten and navy blue hat was a black top hot. On a whim I checked and it was indeed, a magician's hat with the little fake pocket inside to do magic tricks. It was slightly damp, but stubbornly tall. My hand itched to grab it, but I couldn't help hesitating. This was clearly where forgotten stuff lived in the hope of becoming found stuff. It is that type of community. Despite my nagging conscious my hands wrapped around the rim and my feet were moving again. Everyone needs a little magic sometimes, maybe this will be mine.
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| check in with a bit of a rant |
[27 Mar 2007|01:57am] |
check in with a bit of a rant
I know it's been a while since I posted anything. I don't really know why, I haven't been particularly busy. I had a wonderful complete day off Saturday which was oh so nice. I worked a short shift on Sunday which was cool cause then I was done and had the rest of the day. Bethany worked all night (if you know Beffy ask her about it, it's a funny story) so I didn't get to see her which sucked. In fact she's doing the same thing today. Stupid opposite schedules. I did get to see oodles of Jamie which was awesome.
On another note my trip this summer is official in that I have bought both my ticket to Portland and my ticket to North Bend. I'm already very excited and I still have what, three months to go? I suppose I am entitled to some excitement as I haven't been for four years and the last trip was pretty depressing.
Lesley excitedly offered me the chance to purchase very expensive graduation invatations and return labels with little caps on them. Thanksfully my parents are too far away to force me to pretend to get caught up in all that stuff. It's not that I am again inviting people, I've already told all my friends and family that will be reasonably close enough to come. It's the senseless waste of money. It's the same concept behind the over comercialized holidays...get people excited and they will waste their money on senseless junk.
They also told me I have to buy my cap and gown soon. sigh...that will equal a visit to campus and a dent in my savings. How many caps and gowns can own seriously need in a lifetime? I really want to pin down the point when higher education went from being about learning to be about sucking all of the money and incuring years and years worth of debt onto young people. Maybe I am being a little bit optimistic to think it was ever about learning/teaching. Wow, I'm really young to be this bitter aren't I? That with the fact that my knee swells up and sucks when it snows marks me as the little old lady I am. This time comes to us all, I just thought I might have a few more years. you know?
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| where has all the time gone? |
[20 Mar 2007|11:43pm] |
Friday was pretty cool. We had to go to this crappy self esteem training. Not that I have a problem with the concept of raising self esteem, but all the stuff they talked about had been gone over at my school. But it was ended early whcih was AWESOME. Weekend starting at 12:15 on a friday afternoon is awesome. Two of my coworkers and I went and played some pool at the conviently located bowling alley right next door.
So it's been a few days. I had Saturday off which was awesome. I didn't want to work as it had snowed again this weekend, and I still had a cold. I'm all better now and I spent the day under my blankets. I did end up working on Sunday. I wish I could work on saying no when they offer me shifts. I just know I need the money. I just wrote out almost 1300 in checks to pay bills today and that's not even including my rent which is due next week. Sigh. Work on Sunday was actually not too bad. There were a bunch of new girls in the house and they all seemed pretty cool. I also went to Plaster FunTime and painted a ceramic sun. It was that or watch the girls paint for four hours. It was not a hard choice.
The last two days I've had to go to this youth workers conference thingy and then go to the after school. It has been less than fun. especially as I only get to go to one workshop in order to get to work on time. Most of the topics didn't sound taht interesting anyway.
I am so tired I am falling asleep on the keyboard. As that is uncomfortable I will instead be going to bed. Just wanted to catch you all up a little bit.
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| catching up |
[11 Mar 2007|11:49pm] |
catching up
ok, so now that I have slept again I have enough energy to write a little more than "yay" about my week. I should start with saying it really wasn't as hard as I thought it was going to be. Yes, I was at times tired. Yes, I had to trade eating and showering with precious bits of sleep. Yes, I did not sleep for more than three consequetive hours for 5 days. Yes, there were moments when I was so bored I thought I would just die, but I survived it. And the crazy thing was it wasn't so bad. I didn't think an hour and a half would be enough to sleep to like survive and function rationally on, but it was. In fact I had a hard time sleeping last night because I was going to be like 10 hours too early.
Job number two has been going really well. I really feel like I work at this group home and not for some temp agency. The whole working without ever meeting a coworker is kind of weird. One of my favorite girls is moving out on Tuesday. I'm happy for her, but it sucks.
Beffy has orientation for this temp agency place on Wednesday. Best part of her working there? Not that she is one step closer to escaping Stop and Shop. Not that it will help her to have more monies. No, the best part is that I will apparently get 100 dollars for referring her. That so should have been part of the orientation pitch. hehe of course I will have to buy her a couple drinks or something with some of it, but free money? Always trumps all that other boring crap.
I bought some movies today and caught up a little on all the crap I had let slide during the last few hellish days (not enough, but I wanted to rest and such too...I am only human) In fact I have to go finish my laundry soon. I hate laundry day.
Ohh on Friday I got a security code for Brookview House (job number one, the after school). I am apparently getting a key as soon as they have a new one made for me. I've only been working there since July, but apparently now they can really trust me! Yay!
I work another double tomorrow, but it should be my last overnight for this week at least. I'm not really looking forward to it as I am sure it will be much harder to go back after having a couple of normal nights. Oh well, you do what you have to do, right? Only about three months into my already anticipated vacation!!
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So I am currently at work for the temp job. 11pm til 9am which is fine, right? Even if I was supposed to hang with Beffy and Duchess tonight, ten hours is ten hours and I am poor. But then I had to go and be all greedy and stupid and now I am doing the same thing tomorrow and Friday and I am working 3pm-11pm on Saturday. I am still working my usual 2pm-6pm at Brookview. Each commute takes me about an hour and a half to two hours so this means that I am not sleeping more than two hours in a row until Saturday night. Wheeeeeeeeee. I swear I need one of those little people to sit on my shoulder and slap me upside the head when I am making a stupid decision. Anyone know where I can get one of those? At least I'm going to be having a little bit of extra money. And the people I'm working overnight with seem very cool. One of the girls is letting me use her computer (obviously I was getting one somewhere, right?) and I have a tv with cable on it. Plus the ten gallons of mountain dew I bought. And the bottle of caffeine pills. (mmm cafeine, what would I do without thou?) Ohh and I had been warned that if you doze off even for a minute you get kicked out and you can't come back, but the supervisor here tonight told me to set my alarm for the times when I have to do a check (every hour and a half) in case I doze off. :D:D:D:D:D Yay for the cool lenient place. Still don't expect to hear from me until Sunday. Is it bad that I miss sleep already?
I am sooo bored....This really isn't that bad, but it is significantly harder to stay awake when you are bored. I still have a little over six hours to go to. Well only like two and a half hours until the first girls start to get up so hopefully it'll be a little more interesting then. I guess I shouldn't complain that my job is too easy, right? Any tips on how to keep awake/entertained? I have plenty more nights of this coming up so please share suggestions!
I'm trying to think of anything else that has gone on as I haven't written much lately, but I really can't think of anything. I normally lead a dull life. What can you do?
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So I had my first shift as a relief worker last night. I was in a residential home for adolescent girls. It was weird as everyone else knew each other really well, and I definitly felt like an outsider. It was also a little awkward as most of the time there was nothing for me to do. For part of the evening there was only one kid and there was never more than five of them there and awake. They told me it wasn't usually that quiet, and basically told me to stand around keeping one eye on the kids.
Despite the weird feelings I did have a really good time. Ironically out of the eight girls I met I already knew one thanks to my other job. That was a little crazy. But the house did have a good feel to it even if I didn't feel like I belonged to it. The shift supervisor really liked me I guess and she said they try to use the same relief people so she was going to recomend they asked for me again. That would definitly be cool.
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[28 Feb 2007|11:35pm] |
So today was, in generally, better. It was our end of the month birthday party and that is always fun. A lot more laid back and there was cake. Can any day with cake really be bad? And I got to give four of my kids birthday presents and that is one of my favorite parts of the job. I love how excited they get. And they are donated so unlike the cake, pizza, chips, and candy Daniel and I do not have to buy the presents. It's a good thing I really like my kids...cause they are not cheap!
Things have been slightly better with my bosses at work even if I did get another mini lecture from a supervisor which still does not count as the official meeting I will have to endure. Sigh. But other than that it's been a lot better. Mimi and I sort of talked and it's been a lot easier again whch is cool because I really liked her. Plus, hating going to work is no good.
Talked to the lady from the temp place today. She sounded optimistic about me getting my first job this weekend. As much as I enjoy my weekends of intense lazyness I really do need to start working more. Debts have increased as my income has decreased which is ungood.
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[28 Feb 2007|02:11am] |
So yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to as the meeting for my three bosses to yell at me was canceled. Sadly it will be rescheduled even though two of my bosses have admitted understanding I didn't do what I was accused of, but as that third boss is the boss of the whole agency and they brought "the issue" to her attention it still has to be dealt with. Sigh. I got my evaluation today which sucked ass. I feel like it was unnecessarily harsh, but I get the feeling that's just what my agency does. Great for morale eh? Today could have also sucked less...my coworker didn't come to work and we had to cancel the kids special Tuesday activity so I had an extra hour and a half to fill by myself with twenty kids. FUN. Oh and did I mention that I won't be getting a raise at my job for another year even though I was promised one? Sometimes I think life hates me.
Tomorrow should be good as it is our February birthday party. Parties have to be good, right?
In other news I officially declared my intent to graduate this May and RSVPed for commencement as my dad has already requested the day after off. The things we do to please the ones we love. I would rather skip the crappy ceremony and all that shit, but whatever. So yay to being done with formal education for a while. and YAY to being done with Lesley. I wonder if I'll always love and hate the places I call home.
I really enjoyed tonight's episode. I don't like Logan/Parker, but I was really glad when Veronica gave permission (although the need for that also felt a little wrong). He needed to move on. And I needed my Logan to love. How come when I start to really like the show again it goes back on hiatus?
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